What once was a dream became reality. The dreams, they just won't stop. My name is Demetry and I’m sixteen years old. I’m one of the kids that no one really pays attention to, when they do pay attention, it's usually negative. Some stupid kids just don’t care how bad they make others feel. One time, the entire back row in our class threw paper wads at me all at once. And not one of the teachers does anything to stop them, they just keep teaching, like they don't even hear the laughter of the others. Vie thought about getting revenge on all of them for how they treat me and other kids but I think Ill let someone else do it for me. I’m just glad I don’t have any siblings to worry about; I have a hard enough time keeping myself out of trouble let alone someone else. I write in my journal when I’m not reading my books. The thing I write the most about is this dream girl I have. She’s not exactly a fantasy girl; she is just a girl I started having dreams about. The dreams started about a month before Grammee V died. Cancer is what took her from us; too much smoking when there were no warning labels on the box to tell her what she was doing to her body. The day before she died, she asked the nurse if they could give her something to make her fall asleep and never wake up... That's how much pain she was suffering. Grammee V, just the thought of her makes me thinks of those fresh baked chocolate chip cookies she knew I loved. They were the key to my heart, along with anything else she pulled out of that cookbook of hers, or that she invented herself. She was the one I would go to if mom and dad ever fought. She would take care of me when I was sick or just lonely. She always knew what to say to me to make me feel better, no matter the reason I was over. Now, about the dreams I keep having. I can't really call them "reoccurring" dreams because none of the dreams have been the same; only the girl was present in all of them. Many times, she would appear out of nowhere. Gracefully and sweetly, the girl would whisk me away from all my troubles as if she were an angel pulling me in her ascension towards a better place. The first dream started out with me in the hospital next to Grammee V. The moment Grammee V passed; the girl appeared out of thin air. With ever waking moment her aroma grew stronger pulling me to a place that I don’t recognize. "He isn't making any progress. Perhaps he should be placed on antidepressants." The grievance counselor told my parents, as if the plain glass window and the cheapness of the faux wood door could really keep their conversation from my ears." "We're not putting our baby on drugs!" My mother exclaimed with a violent slam on the counselor’s desk. "Now Honey, maybe we should listen to what the psychiatrist has to say on the matter. He is more informed on the subject than us, Sweetheart." My father said calmly, like I was a matter of business to him, nothing more. My parents got done talking with my grievance counselor about how I’m coping with my Grammee Vs death. It’s been two months since I had begun counseling; they had known she was going to die. In that time I’ve had ten dreams and all of them had my mystery girl in them. I’ve asked for her name several times and I’ve even guessed it before but she hasn’t told me yet. I’m not sure why she keeps her name a secret from me. Perhaps I shall give her a name, one that suites her. Rose, yes, she is beautiful and elegant like a rose. Demetry calls me Rose. Rose, I like that, its better then what my parents called me when I was alive. I forgot what it means to be alive, but that will all change when the deal I made is finished. Emily is what I used to be called... Back when I could touch, taste, smell the world around me. When I would fall and hurt myself and feel pain. I would give anything to get it back again, the feeling of just to feel. Demetry is my only way back into the world of the living. Within the dreams, I become more real to him everyday. Within the dreams, I slip him further and further into purgatory where I lay dormant... For now... Salty rivers pour down my cheeks... "Grammee V, Why can't you help me?" Surrounded by darkness, with only my own voice to echo back at me... Only if Rose was here, she could always take me away from the darkness. Into her loving light of lilies and lilacs is where I longed to be. A voice murmuring in the distance, could it be her? Rose, the girl, I wish to nurture and care for me. The one whose arms are so gentle as they wrap around me. "Demetry, my sweet angelic one; where are you?" I hear him calling to me in the distance. I reply to him "I’ve come to whisk you away from all of your pain and suffering, my love. There you are, Demetry. Are you crying about your Grammee V?" "Yes, I just miss her so much, Rose, I can't stop. Will you take me some were else other then here? I think if my Grammee V could meet you that she would love you as much as I do." "Why wouldn't I take you away from all of this? I hate seeing you like this, all sad and depressed. I think I'll take you some where special, Demetry." "Where might that be?" "I'm not telling you because if I did it wouldn't be a surprise, now would it?" "No, I guess not." "Will you at lest give me a clue please?" "No, I’m not giving you a clue at all besides were almost there." "The scenery was beautiful. I could see a lake and some animals in the brush but I was too occupied by Roses essence, I’m never shire what she was feeling at some times. At the moment she was completely happy. I don’t know why she was happy but it didn’t mater at the moment. She looked at me and said with her beautiful voice." "We’ve arrived at the place, Demetry." "All a sudden a sensation came over me. Words couldn’t describe what I was feeling but I can tell you that it was over whelming. We were in a forest; in front of us was a waterfall, it was spectacular. It looked to have a cave behind it. I asked Rose what is this place?" "Owe, it’s my favorite place to go to when I’m said or lonely. It just makes me fill at peace with my self, no mater how I feel. So do you fill better then earlier?" "Yes, I feel a lot better now, Rose." "I’m glad that you’re happy now, but I want to show you something. I think you’ll like it, I made it for you." "Will you tell me what it is?" "No, Ill show you but you must close your eyes first." "Why do I have to close my eyes, Rose?" "Because its a surprise, Demetry," "Ok, Ill close my eyes for you, Rose." "Its morning and almost time to go to your Grammee Vs funeral so you better here up and get dressed now Demetry." My mother said. Me, I just wanted to go back to sleep and forget that my Grammee V ever died. I didn’t want to go to her funeral and acknowledge that she had just died. Unfortunately, they would make me go anyway out of respect, which was the reason I went. A strange, utter silence fell about us in the car ride over to the church. It seemed as though the ride was to last forever. It only took us fifteen minutes to travel there on a normal day; today, however, would be a different story. "Uncle Robert suggests that we start cleaning out Moms house soon. The food is going to spoil if its there too much longer. And we need to figure out who’s going to take in Scruffy." My father said, stone coldness in his voice. As if his mother hadn’t just died in the house he grew up in, that she was to meet us at the church in a black box with golden trim in which we were to stick her in the ground in for the rest of eternity. "I want Scruffy," I said in a whisper, staring at my reflection in the car window. "I don’t know if we can have a dog, Honey. The apartment managers might not let us have him." My mother replied, a touch of sadness in her eyes." "You’ll say anything to make me feel worse today, wont you?" I uncontrollably yelled at her. I didn’t mean it, but I couldn’t take it back. It hadn’t been a week and they were already talking about cleaning out her house. "How dare you speak to your mother that way Demetry? That was completely uncalled for; Ill dill with you when we get home." "Oh, really and how might that be Father; your never home and Mother is always with her friends; so how do you plan on discipline me? The one person that ever really paid attention to me is gone now and you two are never home to do anything with me." "You know what boy." "No Father, you know what your never really there for me when I need you, so quit frankly you don’t have any right disciplining, so just leave me alone the both of you, ok. Now can you just wake me when we get there? I slipped off into another dream." "Rose, were are you my love, I wish to gaze upon you." "Demetry, I’m here with you all the time, all you have to do is say my name and I will be at your side, my love. Demetry why do you not get along with you mother and father?" "The resin I don’t get along with them is they’ve never really been there for me when I need them, so I never really considered them as parents. " "I see what you mean Demetry." "Rose can you take me to the cave behind the waterfall?" "Of course I can, just imagine it and we will be there. Can you see it, my love?" "Yes, I see the waterfall, the cave behind it and the trees surrounding it all." "Open your eyes Demetry were here. Now let me show you what I wanted to show you last time, but first les take a swim." "Ok, sounds like fun." "I watch him slowly take his clothes off his body. He slowly removed his shirt reviling his dark pale chest than he removed his black jeans and he was starting to remove his boxers from his clean shaved cock. He slowly got in the lack turning towards me smiling saying "I’m waiting for you Rose." "I watch Rose slowly strip her clothes from her physique body. " Demetry wake up wake up.